More About Me- Timeline

• Feb 2004- I met my husband working on my Bachelors.  We totally didn't like each other, but I guess all that arguing made us closer
• Nov2005- Ironically we got serious and he enlisted in the Air Force.  
• 2006- Graduated with BA in Psych and then went to Graduate School for Counseling
• Dec 2007- I have a Fiance!! I can finally see the end to the long distant relationship
• August 2008- Graduated with my MA in Counseling; got an awesome job and started planning a wedding
• June 2009- Got married and moved to Utah
• Dec 2009- We decided to get off BCP and let whatever happens happen
• July 2009- Something weird is going on with my cycles.  We tried everything to get them regular.  Doctor told me to get back on BCP to see if that will regulate.  Didn't work, referral to RE
• Dec 2010-  Diagnosed with PCOS, started taking Metformin. LOST 15 lbs
• Feb 2011- Hubby separated and we moved to Colorado.  Decided to really get serious about TTC.  
• April 2011- Told by new Dr. that we will have to do Clomid to conceive due to my irregular cycles.  

As I look over the timeline, it doesn't seem as bad as others I have seen or heard about.  I feel as though I just need to suck it up and wait out whatever is out there.  I am upset, that I even have to have a timeline.  All of my friends and family are having babies with the ease, WHY NOT ME!! I feel like due to me not working I have so much time to have unnecessary emotions.  I might just need to make friends in Colorado, so that my only communicative buddy is not the keyboard.   Is it  too much to ask for the Cinderella story.  My entire family says that I am dramatic; am I being dramatic world? I hate the fact that someone told be to see a infertiltiy doctor; it echos failure and disappointmetn in my entire body. Clearly, I have a lot of time on my hands this is my second post, lol.  I SHALL GIVE IT A REST.

Here We Go

 I can't seem to talk to anyone or no one understands me, so I am going to talk to the world.  I have never really done this before, but hey why not give it a shot.  Lets talk about me.  I am 26 years old and married.  I recently moved to Fort Collins since my wonderful husband separated from the Air Force. I am happy about that.  He wants a baby; I am not sure.  I got off BCP to see what GOD had planned, but apparently he had other things in mind.
I have always done things according to lists or what I perceived as perfect.  I didn't want to be like most women and drop out of school or have a couple kids and end up on welfare.   I finished school, got the job, got the man, and had the wedding.  I thought I had the happy life, but it doesn't work that way.  SO THEY TELL ME!
I have been trying to relax and let life happen, especially since the baby talk.  I was told yesterday that I would have to go and see an Infertility Doctor.  My husband was frustrated at me for being upset.  He said they will figure out a solution; we do what they tell us and hope for a baby.  I was upset due to him not understanding my frustration, embarrassment, and anger.  I called and talked to my sister and she said, well you have gotten everything handed to you easy.  GOD is making your baby difficult so you can know what it feels like to go through something
I am a religious person, but I am having a hard time accepting that.  I don't know who I can talk to.  I am currently jobless since resigning due to the move.  I have a lot of time on my hands, so here we go world.  I don't know if anyone would read this, or this is just my window to talk to GOD more.  This blog is going to be my outlet, because apparently can't seem to get across to anyone. FEEL FREE TO LEAVE COMMENTS. And by way, I do not claim to be an author, so any grammatical errors or miss spellings; laugh off and still read it.