Here We Go

 I can't seem to talk to anyone or no one understands me, so I am going to talk to the world.  I have never really done this before, but hey why not give it a shot.  Lets talk about me.  I am 26 years old and married.  I recently moved to Fort Collins since my wonderful husband separated from the Air Force. I am happy about that.  He wants a baby; I am not sure.  I got off BCP to see what GOD had planned, but apparently he had other things in mind.
I have always done things according to lists or what I perceived as perfect.  I didn't want to be like most women and drop out of school or have a couple kids and end up on welfare.   I finished school, got the job, got the man, and had the wedding.  I thought I had the happy life, but it doesn't work that way.  SO THEY TELL ME!
I have been trying to relax and let life happen, especially since the baby talk.  I was told yesterday that I would have to go and see an Infertility Doctor.  My husband was frustrated at me for being upset.  He said they will figure out a solution; we do what they tell us and hope for a baby.  I was upset due to him not understanding my frustration, embarrassment, and anger.  I called and talked to my sister and she said, well you have gotten everything handed to you easy.  GOD is making your baby difficult so you can know what it feels like to go through something
I am a religious person, but I am having a hard time accepting that.  I don't know who I can talk to.  I am currently jobless since resigning due to the move.  I have a lot of time on my hands, so here we go world.  I don't know if anyone would read this, or this is just my window to talk to GOD more.  This blog is going to be my outlet, because apparently can't seem to get across to anyone. FEEL FREE TO LEAVE COMMENTS. And by way, I do not claim to be an author, so any grammatical errors or miss spellings; laugh off and still read it.